Friday, February 11, 2011

Some Good News

I finally did it.  I got a job.  Not a job I like or truthfully one I really want, but we need the money so I'm happy about it.  I start Monday.

Things have been declining rapidly.  It's been almost a year & it's really getting to me.  I took today to feel really, really sorry for myself.  I'll pick myself up & dust myself off tomorrow.  I think having this job and a purpose will really improve my mood.  Break out of my rut, oh I mean routine!  And I don't feel like I'm leaving Jax which is important to me, not that I feel like a great mum these days, but again, hoping to improve that.  Hoping to improve on that with all 3 kids.  I need to be a positive person around them.  I need to make sure they don't know how really bad it is.  Knowing a little is fine, but knowing we are struggling to buy food is another.

I pray every day, every night that we find a way out of this mess we are in.  I feel like screaming...I GOT IT!!!   I LEARNED MY LESSON!!!!  GIVE ME BACK MY LIFE & I WILL DO BETTER!!!  I don't think it works that way though

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