A new year

I'm not 40 anymore.  I'm 41.  I didn't accomplish any of the things I wanted to this past year, but I did make it through.  It was a tough year in so many ways.  I'm glad it's over.  On to bigger & better things!!


Plans for the year?  I don't have many.  I want to reconnect with old friends.  I want to work on being healthy & fit and and for my family to be healthy & fit.  I want to go to a spa trip with girlfriends.  I want to be a more positive person even when life throws challenges at me.  I want to connect better with my husband, make our relationship even better.  I want to step out of my comfort zone more, when I have good things have happened!  I want to remember that I am capable of more than I think I am!


Livvi, Jax & I are having a stay home day today.  We all have coughs and I can barely talk.  I could've pushed through, but I don't want to.  I'm taking today to do laundry, clean, grocery shop & maybe do some Christmas shopping.  All the things I have no time to do.  


I keep toying with the idea of quitting my job. There are things I really, really like about it.  Like, making money, the people I work with, the kids I work with, being with Jaxie during the day.  And of course things I don't like about it, the time it consumes, the fact that I have no time to do anything, being sick all the time and  getting up early!  It's not as if we would miss the money I make cause I don't make that much!  I think I need to go to part time in the new year.  I need to be able to do activities with the kids after school and work out myself!  I need to be able to keep up with all the housework too!


Speaking of which, I'd better not waste the day & get off my new laptop & get moving!  

Happiness

I'm happy. It's been a while since I could honestly say that. I just sat here thinking "I'm happy, I'm content". It feels good.

I'm enjoying working for the most part. Still struggling to balance work, home & me. I can't seem to get housework done during the week so my weekends are taken up with laundry & cleaning. Forget about working out, haven't done it once. No excuses, I just haven't made it a priority & I know I need to do that. Ive attempted to clean up my food. But I confess I did eat an entire thing of chocolate icing this weekend. I'm not even sure why except that I wanted chocolate & that was in the house. Not a good choice at all. Need to change my mindset big time!

At the end of the day....

I am exhausted right now. I should work out but I think I need to sleep instead.

I managed to eat clean but not 100% on plan. I will take it. Progress not perfection. Have steered clear of Oreos & I will remain steadfast!!

Think I will sleep for 30 mins & then workout

It Got Better

It's been such a crazy year & a half for us.  I feel like we've been on the down part of the roller coaster and we are finally on the straight & even part heading back to the dock.  I feel like I can breathe again.  

I decided to get a full time job about a month ago.  I went back to what I know...childcare.  I got a job in a good preschool, close to home.  Then, miracle of miracles, Rod got a great job, doing what he used to do only better.  Now we are a two income family.  We don't really need my salary, but I sure do feel good earning it...and saving it!  

The kids are adjusting to me not being home right when they get home.  I'm adjusting to it too.  It's hard for me not to be here, but they are old enough for a little independence now.  I'm hoping it teaches them to be more responsible, maybe I baby them too much.  I know I need to be more organized.  I'm getting there.  I've got a dinner menu planned for the week & all the food to make it!  And I think I'm caught up on laundry so a load a night should keep us in clean clothes without me feeling overwhelmed by the laundry monster!!  Now I just need to get the house cleaned & we'll be good.

Now that things are more settled in my life, it's time to take care of me.  Going back on my eating plan tomorrow.  All my food is made, measured & ready to go.  It's going to interesting how I'm going to fit eating in while at work, but I will manage somehow.  I have a run planned with Olivia and I will lift here at home.  I'm done with being 20lbs over where I want to be.  I want to fit into my clothes again. I'm saying it right here...MINI GOAL ~ lose 10lbs by Oct 26 ~ which is totally doable.  I will be in my goal jeans by my birthday Dec 10!!!!

Wish me luck!  

Fun at the Indy Children's Museum

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Jax & Jax had a blast!

That's my boy. Not content to stand next ti the table & play. He's gotta get in it!

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Traderspoint Creamery

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We had so much fun today. We went for a great walk, skipped some stones, had some organic chocolate milkshakes & got to watch the cows being milked!!